Wasted Part II

I left my brother that morning

at his basketball tryouts

gave him a hug

and told him that I loved him

till the day I died

then went to work

I stood on the corner

in front of the bodega

crisp Vasquez boots

a nicely ironed Girbaud shirt

with matching pants

I chew on my gum

with perfect timing

every second comes in with a new chew

tick tock

tick tock

squish squish

squish squish

I'm waiting for my crew to roll up

yup dat black car

coming down the block

real fast

"Get in"

my homeboy tells me

I jump in the car

no hesitation

he hands me the piece

we ride down three blocks

I get prepared

Lil niggaz drinking forties

think it's cool to mess with my niggaz

Yet they don't know what a day be like

I start rolling down

I see a girl

with a white cap and gown

in my way

Feel bad for her

but you gotta do what you gotta do

He slows the car up

I start shooting niggaz fall to the floor

so does that innocent girl

She fell slowly

like a strong wall

taking a fall

after a harsh cold bloody war

I start chewing my gum again

but slower this time

squish... squish

squish... squish

The car speeds up

I roll up my window

close my eyes

I asked myself "why?"

I just took a young girl out

purity written all over her face

a white gown polluted with a mess I made

I messed up this time

I drop the piece

and start to cry a river of hot tears

mixed with sweat

sweat of a guilty mind

after that day

I promised myself I would change my life

POP!

A clear shot to the head

I fall against the glove compartment

Darkness is all I see

I can't move I hear my echo

nothing more

Then there's a light

I walk towards it

a woman

a man

carry me in the direction of the lord

the lord held my shoulder

and touches a cloud

he lets me see my little brother

crying

crying over my stiff cold body

my cold face

no expression at all

I live horribly

died horribly

then my lord

showed me the future

I saw my brother

in my mother's room

holding the piece

the same piece I took my first nigga out with

he holds it to his head

I try to stop him

he hesitates

then lies down

and says,

"You said you loved me till the day you died"

puts the pillow over his head

and

took his life away

I stayed speechless

once more

purity polluted by my hands

I looked at the lord

tears in my eyes

He stared down at me

and shook his head

I looked at my brother's lifeless body

I now noticed

from the day I placed a piece in my hand

it was too late for change

I did what I did

can't undo it

My niggaz life

her life

my baby brother's life

my life

all

wasted

I'Nish King